Undammed

How could I let all this time pass?
How could I have let my life slip away?
Passion
Desire
turned to
Pain
Anguish
Passion to Anguish
How did this happen?
All this time?
Holding back
Holding in
Repressing Submitting
Waiting
Damming the flood waters
but nature makes her way through
For a moment
unrestrained
Undammed
gushing
Rushing forward
overcoming
Drowning
suffocating
Engulfing
lungs filling
Now
Raw
the wound finally open and bleeding
expelling the poison
without love
no way to heal
to close the wound
Will I be
o p e n
and
b l e e d i n g
forever?

Conversations in pain

Do we have to talk about this?
Do we?
It's clear that your heart is free
Mine aches for you
you're untouched

Do we have to talk about this?
it hurts
to talk about it
to bring it out
into the light

p l e a s e let me keep this in the dark
where you can't see and feel pity

You with another
I crack and bleed
she knows

p l e a s e leave me alone with this agony

Do we have to talk about this?
Can we not run a truck over my heart
please

Obsession

Impossible
I can't believe you're mine
Every day
Every night
I can't get enough
I'm never satisfied

Soft eyes
innocent smile
Impossible
no one is this beautiful

Heart flutters
palms sweat
Unbearably delicious
Exquisitely painful

But...
I have invented you
All in my head
Obsession

Invisible Thread

I feel you breath
we're connected
I know you're lonely
we're connected
I am too
we're connected

Across miles and miles
under the same moon
Full and ripe
looking for a love
The two of us, hearts alone and uncertain
How can we close the gap
mend this gaping hole
this painful space

I've been holding my breath
waiting for you to breath
into me
Come into me
exhale

Never

Never look below the surface
How are you? F.I.N.E.
Hollow questions
Empty answers
Lives of quiet desperation
true
bound and gagged
Never drain your heart and close it
Never risk your soul to hell
Never wish the day be over
Never gently close your eyes
Never walk away from those eyes
Never push those hands away
Never let love slip through your fingers
Never let it pass untouched.

Touch and Response

I want to live vividly

I want to feel my head swim as we make eye contact

Forget my name

You walk i n t o the room... I can't b r e a t h

I want to feel my heart pound madly with anticipation

I want to feel the heat flood my face as you look intomyeyes

I want to feel my blood boil
quick surge
touch and response

Release me

Finding peace
is that even possible
Will I recognize it when I find it
Is it the tranquility I expect
or will it be what I need

My agitated heart is t i r e d
but agitated still
My body can lay down to rest
but my heart is t i r e d
but beats still

All day, every day, every o n e of my waking moments
longing
yearning
thirsting for salvation.

Save me from this wasteland
release me

My Love

Your voice comes to life and you p u r r
m m m m m
you are my pleasure

You rumble
warm against my back
I lean against you
breathless

You
shift
sway
undulate under the caress of my hands
tenuous control

am i in control? or are you?

Pulse races
blood pounds
spine shivers
hands shake

my love

Ferrari

VIVID

VIVID
Touch..........too hot
Taste..........too sweet
Sound...........ragged
Nerves..........on fire
VIVID
the heat of you
sweet

pounding

crashing

sighing

burns me
VIVID
Sweet collision
Soft shudders
Liquid un du la tion
Electric shock
VIVID