Who Am I?

I am intense. I am passionate.

I am sensitive. I am insatiably curious.

I am feeling. I am generous. I am strong.

I am gentle. I am creative. I am kind.

I am responsive. I am loving. I am loyal. I am fierce.

I am warrior. I am lover. I am friend.

I am mother. I am defender. I am open. I am wild. I am thirsty. I am hungry. I am present.

I am yours.

I am yours to stand beside. I am yours to love.

I am yours to hurt. I am yours to hold. I am yours to support.

I am yours to encourage.

I am yours to nuture I am yours to throw away. I'm yours to keep.

Who are You?

Shortcuts to Hell

Travesty of the mind
False declarations of a soul
Shortcuts to hell

Dance on the precipice
Stumble on marked snow
Petals, like delicate whispers
shatter like stain glass over broken religion

Unedited words flow like blood
Rich, startling, essential
with the power of loss
Red pours, my heart bleeds and I break in 2; I break into; I break in two

Undammed

How could I let all this time pass?
How could I have let my life slip away?
Passion
Desire
turned to
Pain
Anguish
Passion to Anguish
How did this happen?
All this time?
Holding back
Holding in
Repressing Submitting
Waiting
Damming the flood waters
but nature makes her way through
For a moment
unrestrained
Undammed
gushing
Rushing forward
overcoming
Drowning
suffocating
Engulfing
lungs filling
Now
Raw
the wound finally open and bleeding
expelling the poison
without love
no way to heal
to close the wound
Will I be
o p e n
and
b l e e d i n g
forever?

Conversations in pain

Do we have to talk about this?
Do we?
It's clear that your heart is free
Mine aches for you
you're untouched

Do we have to talk about this?
it hurts
to talk about it
to bring it out
into the light

p l e a s e let me keep this in the dark
where you can't see and feel pity

You with another
I crack and bleed
she knows

p l e a s e leave me alone with this agony

Do we have to talk about this?
Can we not run a truck over my heart
please

Obsession

Impossible
I can't believe you're mine
Every day
Every night
I can't get enough
I'm never satisfied

Soft eyes
innocent smile
Impossible
no one is this beautiful

Heart flutters
palms sweat
Unbearably delicious
Exquisitely painful

But...
I have invented you
All in my head
Obsession

Invisible Thread

I feel you breath
we're connected
I know you're lonely
we're connected
I am too
we're connected

Across miles and miles
under the same moon
Full and ripe
looking for a love
The two of us, hearts alone and uncertain
How can we close the gap
mend this gaping hole
this painful space

I've been holding my breath
waiting for you to breath
into me
Come into me
exhale

Never

Never look below the surface
How are you? F.I.N.E.
Hollow questions
Empty answers
Lives of quiet desperation
true
bound and gagged
Never drain your heart and close it
Never risk your soul to hell
Never wish the day be over
Never gently close your eyes
Never walk away from those eyes
Never push those hands away
Never let love slip through your fingers
Never let it pass untouched.